Put down the binoculars...

Last night while I was taking a shower in the dark (if I take a shower at night, I usually do so in the dark...for some reason, it makes me feel like I am getting ready for sleep...I have to turn out the lights mentally as well as physically, make sense?) Anyhow, back to my shower in the dark, my mind was reeling from the day--

Phil met me in Portland after I had a beer with some other Nurse/Nurse Practitioner students.  We ran some errands and went to a coffee-shop.  I was in a funky mood and we both agreed we needed some food.  We went to a local pub, sat outside with live acoustic music beside a couple on their first date. First dates...always so awkward.  We left and went to Back Cove trail and walked for about an hour.  We did so many different things yesterday and after it all, I just had this sense that I was floating...feet off ground.  Life is changing so much so fast.  I am changing so much and fast.

Then He spoke.  simply. quietly. surely.

"Sam, I'm here.  I brought you to this place.  Trust me.  No really, Put your trust in Me"

boom.  grounded.

Sometimes we have to "zoom-out" in order to see.  This morning, that idea hit me when I was looking at the baby woodchucks in our backyard.  I had been watching two of the babies play (like all baby animals do) rolling around and biting at each others faces; apparently they heard something that I could not and one darted back to its home beneath the deck.  To see where it was going, I naturally pulled the binoculars away from my eyes.  Then I got the full picture.  They had ran because the neighbors car was pulling into the driveway.


Right now, the Lord has me in a very intense season of tunnel vision.  I can quickly become disoriented and dizzy, forgetting why exactly I'm doing what I'm doing?

I'm so thankful to have His Spirit to remind me..."Put down the binoculars, little one.  Look around and realize the bigger picture."

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thunderstorms that pass, a moon over the ocean that is almost red, bonfires on the beach at dusk, Saudi Arabia politics on NPR, Indian music, seashells on bookshelves, Jezebel--our garden snake, hair long enough to braid, coffee milk, plans to meet friends, prayers early in the morning, the beauty of everyday, the smell of rosemary when the wind blows, incense while I study, a sister's encouragement in an email, difficult news, the pang of memory
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